Dear Chris
You are an idiot... not only that, you are jerk too. I hope you wallow in your pit of misery forever.
Actually I do not. I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry that you can not imagine the damage you have created and I am sorry that I allowed you to do it to the kids. Even now...
You cancel on seeing them knowing that they were looking forward to see you. And you did it because you thought it would awaken me to see that the best thing was to get back together again ? Are you serious ? What madness is this ? You can't even handle them for an hour and you complain about it. you need help. Poor poor you, what a bad father you are. How inconsistent and how selfish you can be. To only think about yourself and not of them and their feelings at all. The children are better off without you ! They will learn to know that their father is never be there for them , not because he cannot but because he does not want to . What a pity , you are such a fool ! This is child developmental psychology 101. There is no attachment or bond between you and them, They do not rely only you emotionally nor do they think they can depend on you to provide them with any sort of stability. Again I say, you are delusional.
Go, and find your way then, lets see if it gets you anywhere. You would probably go on abusing some one else and some other children that you may or may not have. Too bad for them.
Life is good for us. We are happy and I am actually thankful that you do not want to see them. They do not need any memories of a retard dad. My children are going to be stronger without your dementia. They will know that I am their rock and their blanket when they need one.
For now, I will keep telling them that the dad is not well and he is too busy to see them. But when they are older , if asked I will not hesitate to tell the truth. They will need to know and do not worry, they will forgive you. My children will be beautiful souls who knows what is right and wrong. Not only that , they will be loving wonderful individuals who will respect and honor others. Why is that ? Because I believe that without you and with me as their role model, its just a recipe for success !!
So Good Luck ..... and God Bless you in your life's journey !!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Friday, September 24, 2010
Three lil effers
He called Alice and said he wanted some advise cause he did not have a mom. He wanted to ask her what he should do about his three little effers......
nice right.....
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Death Threats
It was made mid July 2010
I was folding the laundry in the guest bedroom, the kids were with Eddie out in the living area. He came into the room, close the door and said menacingly "I will beat you within the inch of your life, you have taken years from my life and now you owe me. You can run back to Malaysia and hide but I will find you and administer this punishment"
He was not shouting. Just said that quietly and walked out.
I started sobbing.
I was folding the laundry in the guest bedroom, the kids were with Eddie out in the living area. He came into the room, close the door and said menacingly "I will beat you within the inch of your life, you have taken years from my life and now you owe me. You can run back to Malaysia and hide but I will find you and administer this punishment"
He was not shouting. Just said that quietly and walked out.
I started sobbing.
Pajamas
He woke me up at 5am to make him coffee. I got up from the bed and made it, leaving the two kids asleep.
Annie was already three and Titi was probably a little over six months.
I made the coffee and went back into bed, I heard Titi waking up. I also locked the room door as a precaution.
I started breast feeding the baby when I heard him shouting and cursing outside. Before long he came knocking on the door and when he realised the door was locked, he broke it down.
He came towards me and the sleeping kids with anger, shouting and screaming at me.
I have long forgotten the words but not the incident. He woke the kids up and they were crying. He was just looking down on me cursing me out. I am sure I told him to leave me alone and to stop his tirade but he did not.
What I said inflamed him more, he then started clawing at me and tore my pajama pants, literally ripping it to bits.
I think he left after that , I can not recall now.
I also took the kids out via the french door in the bedroom and left the house.
Monday, September 20, 2010
COURT RULING
Today was a good day and am very blessed . Thanks YOU all for the prayers, kind thoughts and positive advice given to me.
The Judge gave a three year restraining order to me (can be re-newed !!) and full physical and legal custody of the children. I am not allowed to change the country they reside in, which is ok ! As long as they get to cuti cuti heheh.
It was rather nerve racking sitting court today. The Judge very se-lam-ba only . Already know I so was anxious, she still took her time to see other cases and clearing her court before calling us. I am just thinking that she did it because she did not want too many audience around us. I might have squeeze my advocate's hands too tight and had sweaty palms too.
When we sat at the counsel table, he was not around. He was in and out and pacing the hallway and went out to smoke too I am guessing. The judge waited for like a second and then just went on the record. She said she found evidence of Domestic Abuse present and in the past. She said the horrific pictures of the bruises were clear evidence and it did not matter if it was cause by me being thrown in the trash can or whether he closed the door on me.
It was short !!!
Which was unlike her because she usually gives a long narration explaining her decisions.
I sat down and waited for my paperwork to be completed. Then I got escorted out again by the deputy. This time they took me out the back way, 5 minutes earlier too before giving him the papers, just in case he gets mad and went looking for me. PHeW.. there were three deputies in the same courtroom with us, biasanya only satu only but because of him aaaaa.... we got banyak. Make me even more nervous...
I am glad this crucial part is over.
I am glad that me and the children are together which is the most important part
However a piece of paper cannot keep me safe.
I will have to watch out for retaliation and revenge which is making me nervous.
Now to mediation to customised the visitations, then child support , spousal support... and divorce in the end.. another 5 more months to go
The Judge gave a three year restraining order to me (can be re-newed !!) and full physical and legal custody of the children. I am not allowed to change the country they reside in, which is ok ! As long as they get to cuti cuti heheh.
It was rather nerve racking sitting court today. The Judge very se-lam-ba only . Already know I so was anxious, she still took her time to see other cases and clearing her court before calling us. I am just thinking that she did it because she did not want too many audience around us. I might have squeeze my advocate's hands too tight and had sweaty palms too.
When we sat at the counsel table, he was not around. He was in and out and pacing the hallway and went out to smoke too I am guessing. The judge waited for like a second and then just went on the record. She said she found evidence of Domestic Abuse present and in the past. She said the horrific pictures of the bruises were clear evidence and it did not matter if it was cause by me being thrown in the trash can or whether he closed the door on me.
It was short !!!
Which was unlike her because she usually gives a long narration explaining her decisions.
I sat down and waited for my paperwork to be completed. Then I got escorted out again by the deputy. This time they took me out the back way, 5 minutes earlier too before giving him the papers, just in case he gets mad and went looking for me. PHeW.. there were three deputies in the same courtroom with us, biasanya only satu only but because of him aaaaa.... we got banyak. Make me even more nervous...
I am glad this crucial part is over.
I am glad that me and the children are together which is the most important part
However a piece of paper cannot keep me safe.
I will have to watch out for retaliation and revenge which is making me nervous.
Now to mediation to customised the visitations, then child support , spousal support... and divorce in the end.. another 5 more months to go
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
eddie's testimomy
I am very sad to write this but it needs to be said.
Eddie whom I have brought up like a son, has become the "anak derhaka" in this case.
So melodrama kan ?
Today Eddie claims that I slapped him on numerous occasion.
He claims that I abuse the kids and Chris does not.
He claims that I stole money and that he saw the trash can incident before going into the house to pick the phone up.
He claims that Chris did not abuse him. He claims that they throw things at each other all the time !
Like ping pong paddles, tennis rackets and ahem darts too)
He claims that Chris threatened me but cannot recall what was said.
He claims that Chris slapped him... but refuses to go further. He claims that Chris had punched him before but not close fisted. (ca u punch any other way ?)
He claims that Chris broke his laptop because he spent too many hours on it and it was slow.
(I think not, it was a new sony vaio that cost the grandmother 1.8k )
He also claims that He moved back down to LA because I was not there anymore.
Now that is the funny thing to say, is it not ?
That the reason for him moving back to LA was because I was no longer around !
Why would he want to be around me if I was such a maniacal tyrant who abused him right ?
And if he did see me kena buang in the tong sampah, how come he did not come and help me out ? And instead went into the house to answer a phone call ????
I dont know why Eddie twisted the events and why he had lied but I am sure it was a matter of survival for him. So I forgive him and hope he will learn to live with his mistakes and lay in the bed he has made for himself. Kesian.....
Eddie whom I have brought up like a son, has become the "anak derhaka" in this case.
So melodrama kan ?
Today Eddie claims that I slapped him on numerous occasion.
He claims that I abuse the kids and Chris does not.
He claims that I stole money and that he saw the trash can incident before going into the house to pick the phone up.
He claims that Chris did not abuse him. He claims that they throw things at each other all the time !
Like ping pong paddles, tennis rackets and ahem darts too)
He claims that Chris threatened me but cannot recall what was said.
He claims that Chris slapped him... but refuses to go further. He claims that Chris had punched him before but not close fisted. (ca u punch any other way ?)
He claims that Chris broke his laptop because he spent too many hours on it and it was slow.
(I think not, it was a new sony vaio that cost the grandmother 1.8k )
He also claims that He moved back down to LA because I was not there anymore.
Now that is the funny thing to say, is it not ?
That the reason for him moving back to LA was because I was no longer around !
Why would he want to be around me if I was such a maniacal tyrant who abused him right ?
And if he did see me kena buang in the tong sampah, how come he did not come and help me out ? And instead went into the house to answer a phone call ????
I dont know why Eddie twisted the events and why he had lied but I am sure it was a matter of survival for him. So I forgive him and hope he will learn to live with his mistakes and lay in the bed he has made for himself. Kesian.....
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